Sunday, September 30, 2012

Well... This is seriously dismal...

The older I get, the more I listen to those around me. As I listen, I hear heart wrenching stories of lost love, broken families, and petrified children. This breaks my heart. Children are being exposed to situations younger and younger, and it literally pains me. Listening to stories of children being afraid for the lives of those around them, based on decisions being made by those who are supposed to be the “adults” in the situation, infuriates me. A child should not have to say “No, Daddy, I’m not getting in the car with you because you have been drinking.” What is this world we live in?

When did this become the norm? When did children become the buffer in relationships? When did marriage become such a joke? What is a functional relationship? I’m in a relationship, and I am so incredibly happy. There are days I feel like I might just explode from it. That being said, sometimes I feel like I might not even want to get married… Ever.

As far back as I can remember I have wanted to be a wife and a mom. I want to be a teacher, and then come home to a house and cook dinner for my husband and children. I want to put my children to bed and grade my papers. I have all these goals, but honestly I feel like marriage has become a ritual. It doesn’t mean what it used to, and I don’t know if I want to even be a part of it.

I’m sorry this is so dismal, but I’m really just having a tough time with this today.


Sunday, September 23, 2012

Honey Badger gon' kill someone.

I seriously get so incredibly frustrated when people do not follow through with what they're supposed to do. It's your job, as a human, to take care of yourself. You can do it. Pull up your big kid panties and realize it is no one's job to make sure you do all the things you are supposed to. If you work in an office, it's your job to go to work. No one will get in trouble for that except you. If you have things written down on a calendar, it is not the responsibility of anyone but you to read said calendar. When you get a work schedule it is your job to figure out when you work! UGH!













I also think it should be known that halfway through looking for angry gifs I realized I wasn't angry anymore because these are so freaking funny.


Saturday, September 22, 2012

Don't hate me if we don't agree, Boo. :)

I have been interested in politics since my sophomore year in high school when I attended a Missouri Congressional session, and by interested, I mean I wanted to jump in head first and learn all I could about how to make this country great. Everything that went on that day fascinated me. I argued with my first lobbyist, and won my argument I might add. I got to watch voting take place, and even get introduced to the floor. Then to finish off the day I got to climb into the capitol dome and look out at the river from the highest point in the building. It was almost magical. It was all so new and different than what we’re taught in school.

That being said, since this is a year that is divisible by four, it’s election year. It’s also the first year I’ve been old enough to vote, thus making it the first year I’ve actually put some thought and research into the actual presidential candidates. I’m about 76% sure most people aren’t happy with President Obama, but the thought of Paul Ryan as a Vice President terrifies me. That being said, I know that’s not popular opinion, but it’s mine, and to me, my opinion is pretty important. I was always told to write about things that are important to me, and what’s more important to me than my important opinions, so here this is. Sorry if you’re offended, that was honestly, 100% not my intention in writing this.
The first thing that bothers me about Paul Ryan, is the fact that he blatantly lies on his website in his biography section. In the very first paragraph on his biography page it says “Currently serving his 7th term as a Member of Congress, Paul works to address the many important issues affecting Wisconsin residents and serve as an effective advocate for the 1st Congressional District” He is claiming to “serve as an effective advocate” for his district, but if you go to the home page of his website (—which is where I’ve gotten this information) it shows a chart of the things that have come up for vote concerning his state, and how he has voted on each. Of the three votes that are actually listed, he has declared that he is NOT even going to vote. How can you claim to be effectively advocating the people that voted for you and put their political faith in you, if you aren’t even voting? No matter the circumstances, as an elected official, it is your job to vote for the people. You get paid to do so. By accepting a paycheck, you are declaring that you are providing a service. What service are you providing if you aren’t even voting for your district?
In an article by the Atlas society titled Paul Ryan and Ayn Rand’s Ideas: In the Hot Seat Again, Ryan is quoted saying “But the reason I got involved in public service, by and large, if I had to credit one thinker, one person, it would be Ayn Rand. And the fight we are in here, make no mistake about it, is a fight of individualism versus collectivism.” Ryan is also quoted saying some of Ayn Rand’s works are “required reading in my office for all my interns and my staff.”
In case you don’t know, Ayn Rand was a Russian-born writer that published many works, such as “The Fountainhead” and “Atlas Shrugged.” Ayn Rand was openly opposed to both Mysticism and Collectivism in writing, and therefore considered herself more of a European Writer. On the Website (exact link, there is a direct quote from Ayn’s book “The Virtue of Selfishness” in which she states:
 “The proper method of judging when or whether one should help another person is by reference to one’s own rational self-interest and one’s own hierarchy of values: the time, money or effort one gives or the risk one takes should be proportionate to the value of the person in relation to one’s own happiness.
To illustrate this on the altruists’ favorite example: the issue of saving a drowning person. If the person to be saved is a stranger, it is morally proper to save him only when the danger to one’s own life is minimal; when the danger is great, it would be immoral to attempt it: only a lack of self-esteem could permit one to value one’s life no higher than that of any random stranger. (And, conversely, if one is drowning, one cannot expect a stranger to risk his life for one’s sake, remembering that one’s life cannot be as valuable to him as his own.)
If the person to be saved is not a stranger, then the risk one should be willing to take is greater in proportion to the greatness of that person’s value to oneself. If it is the man or woman one loves, then one can be willing to give one’s own life to save him or her—for the selfish reason that life without the loved person could be unbearable.”
According to that quote, moral obligation is only necessary when extended to those you love, or when your risk is minor. If this thought process is then extended to the United States government, who is to say what is or is not a “substantial risk”? Will this thought process then be extended to the national budget? If so, that will most definitely affect most, if not all, social programs in the United States. That terrifies me.

 I’m not ashamed to admit I am a scholarship student in college. I do not have in the upwards of $20,000 a year to spend on everything from books to housing to food. I don’t make that in a year, let alone have it to throw around. I knew from the moment I stepped into Willard High school for the first time on that sweltering August day in 2007, that if I wanted to go to college I was going to have to apply for scholarships and federal grants. Federal grants and federal scholarships are a form of social program. If those get cut because they are “too great a risk” on the financial situation of the country, I lose my ability to go to school and am in quite the financial pickle.  
            According to a U.S. News article entitled Paul Ryan is far From an Ayn Rand Prodigy by Lauren Fox, Fox quotes an interview for the National Review in which Ryan says “It's an atheist philosophy. It reduces human interactions down to mere contracts and it is antithetical to my worldview," Paul said. "If somebody is going to try to paste a person's view on epistemology to me, then give me Thomas Aquinas, Don't give me Ayn Rand.” Ryan speaks of Ayn Rand on two different occasions and gives two very different answers about how she ha changed his views on politics and public service. In the latter part of the quote he said he would rather be compared to Thomas Aquinas, who, according to the Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy was a thirteenth century theologian that distinguished the difference between theology and philosophy. Aquinas is often cited by philosophers for this reason. The Stanford Encyclopedia Quotes him saying “… the believer and the philosopher consider creatures differently. The philosopher considers what belongs to their proper natures, while the believer considers only what is true of creatures insofar as they are related to God, for example, that they are created by God and are subject to him, and the like.” (Summa contra gentiles, bk II, chap. 4) The views of Ayn Rand, however, greatly differ, so which Paul Ryan quote do we believe to be his moral compass? How do we know where he stands?
I know this all sounds like I’m picking on the Republican Party, and I promise I’m not. Believe me; I have my issues with Democrats as well. I don’t like how large companies are running this country and the unconstitutional ideas that presents. I feel like the government has created a monster they no longer know how to tame. That being said, I still place the blame on the government. I don’t feel like it’s the job of the people to be sacrificed for the appeasement of this beast created by government and big business. I don’t like how The Checks and Balances system was put into place to keep one branch of government from becoming too powerful, and instead of adhering to that constitutional principle, the branches are going around each other and finding loopholes to the policy. I hate that I feel like I’m voting in vain. I’m disgusted that the corruption this government has achieved has only been attained through standing on the faces of anyone who gets in your way. That’s not my mentality. I loathe the feeling that I get when I use someone to gain a higher position in life. How can something that started off with such good intentions turn into such a disgustingly powerful entity that is has essentially been ruined?
I don't know who I'm going to vote for yet, and honestly it isn't anyone's business but my own, but I know I'm going to have a hard time either way. Right now I don't feel comfortable with either party.
Sorry this is so heavy and controversial, and kudos if you read all the way to the end! 
Love Love Love <3

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Pinterest will be the death of me.

Makes sense to me! lol

I'm not sure if I have voiced my addiction to Pinterest on here or not, but it is definitely there. For example, see that pretty, little Relatable Post up there? I laughed so hard at that this morning at work I snorted Pumpkin Spice Latte out of my nose. It wasn't pretty. Or easy to clean up. I could have drowned in that latte people.

In all seriousness though, I really like Pinterest, and have found a lot of neat stuff that I never would have even thought about. If you have a pinterest, you should follow mine, I'll follow back ;)

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Rainy Rainy Days :)

I love the rain. I love everything about it. It replenishes our nasty, dry dirt plots we call yards, AND it makes the outside smell wonderful. (If you know me, you probably remember my distaste for the smell of outside… I hate it) I love the smell of rain and wet grass, not so much wet people, so that’s kind of a downer on the smell radar.

An exaggerated version of my backyard

The rain is making my internet connection slow. Wah. It’s super frustrating. It probably doesn’t help that the computer I’m using is ancient… Speaking of ancient things, Dear AOL, etiquette* not “etiquitte” (ß isn’t a word). I’m not even sure why I still have an AOL, other than… Well… I don’t want to have to change everything. I’ve had an AOL account since the third grade and I’m not about to change it now. As soon as they go under I’ll make a new one… I also don’t understand the people that have multiple email accounts, because I can hardly keep up with one. Let’s face it, I do a pretty poor job of ever checking that one.

How I feel about the internet in general 98% of the time
One thing about rain that I absolutely hate though is the sense of entitlement people seem to get when it starts to rain. Listen here Boo, honey badger don’t care that you think you’re gonna melt. You are not. You will be fine. When you show up to my office do not drive up on my sidewalk to drop off your wife. She may find it endearing, but I find it obnoxious, and I’ll slit your tires.

Don't drive on my sidewalk

Another ridiculous rain fact: it makes my hair grow. I’m not talking length… It becomes a rather large creature on the top of my head. I tend to feed it bobby pins I won’t find for days after… Bobby pins have a tendency to get lost and then reappear in my hair. For example, I put ONE bobby pin in my hair yesterday, and when I went to bed, I found four… What?!

Probably accurate...

Have any awesome, or blah for that matter, rain stories? :) I’d love to hear them!

Saturday, September 8, 2012

I ALMOST caved

and created a Tumblr. I did not make one, but I seriously thought about it. I don't think it would be that bad to have one, but I dissed it for so long I can't really justify making one now.

Sometimes I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels on this blog, because, well, no one reads it. I love blogging, but I hate that I feel like I'm getting nowhere. so, dear reader, if you're out there, please comment, or follow, or  visit my page so I at least feel like I'm not writing all of these posts in vain.

This is how I feel right about now.
 I had to give a speech in my Public Speaking class on Thursday, and the pet peeve I chose was people being rude to receptionists, and mouth-breathing...... It was quite the success. I'm pretty proud of my performance.

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Sunday, September 2, 2012

I NEED a tiara.

Ok... Need may be a bit dramatic, but days like today seriously make me want to dust off the old Prom Queen tiara and wear it proudly all over town. And curse like a sailor. I think that would be a nice touch. *that was some heavy sarcasm friends* I just want to buy a container of glitter and start throwing it on the ground and scream at people that get angry and tell them I'm a freaking princess and I can't walk on un-glittered ground. Is that dramatic? Oh well...

I also really want to go get a pedicure. And have my hair cut. And straightened. I just want to be pampered DANGGIT!!! Maybe I'll go home and make Little rub my feet, and brush my hair, and possibly massage my head.

This is going to be me, Boo.
Darling is out of town, which is a major downer and a half. He went to the KState game with his father and is having a blasty-blast, so I guess that's great for the two of them... But I don't like this whole being-off-in-another-state garbage. By the way congrats to KState fans for that lovely win over Mizzou last night.

In other news. I'm going to buy a big, poofy dress and wear it around my house while I clean and do other mundane household activities. Like homework. How much better would homework be if you were dressed up like Cinderella?
Perfectly acceptable princess dress

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Just a friendly note from your neighborhood receptionist

I cannot read your mind. If you don’t know who you want to talk to, neither do I, so you’re going to have to explain the situation to me. Just calling in and telling me your name, gives me no direction, and I can’t help you.

Turn off your radio. I cannot hear you. I may, however, start to sing along with Hunter Hayes, Niki Manaj, or whoever else might be on your radio if I can’t hear you over them. I can’t help it, singing like an annoying pop star is a gift of mine (That was heavy sarcasm… I plan on being the next Whitney Houston. That was also sarcasm).

Do not yell at me. I’ll probably hang up on you. I have that right. I do not get paid to have you scream at me. If you have a problem with me, let me know, and I’ll do my very best to fix it. If you have a problem with someone I’m transferring you to, let me know that as well. It is my job to help you, and make your experience with this company as easy and pleasant as possible. That being said, I can only do so much. If you get someone’s voicemail, I’ve done all I can do, so you need to leave him/her a voicemail. He/she will get back to you. I promise, and if they don’t give it a day or so and call back; everyone gets busy. I’d be glad to send you to a higher up in that situation and let them try to rectify the situation. I am here to serve you as best I can.

I am not a secretary. I do not get coffee. You cannot call me “toots” if that was ever acceptable behavior, I am so glad I did not have to go to through that. I do not send memos for someone that doesn’t know how to use a computer. Those are Hollywood misconceptions, and I actually work with a very technologically forward company, thank you very much. It is my job to answer the phones, direct walk-ins and follow the instructions in my manual.

I love my job. I love my company. I love everything about what I do, except the occasional rude client. We all hate the jerks we have to deal with, and to prevent you from having to deal with me being a grumpy pants, help me out, Boo :) Don't make me angry. No one wins.


I don't own these pictures I found them on Google.